30 Days
Agh. What the hell? Writer depression. All my brilliant, wry or simply self-amusing anecdotes and ideas seem to wither and die before my fingers touch the keyboard. Not interesting enough? Not funny enough? Too ego-centric? Have I just become a total duh?
Taking a page from my friend Andrea's list of self-challenges (100 Days of Yoga, 30 Days of No Shopping, 100 Days of no Sugar, Flour, Alcohol and Rice, etc) I am committing to putting something out there for the next 30 days. Of course, I have a commitment issue thing so I should probably also commit to committing myself.
Brene Brown wrote: “Vulnerability is the birthplace of innovation, creativity and change. ” I've been obsessed with her 2010 TED Talk and a few interviews I've found to listen to while driving. Go search her now if you haven't heard of her before. Part of her message: without vulnerability we stifle our creativity and limit our authenticity. We judge ourselves and compare and then decide, no, this isn't good enough to share with the world. We're not good enough to share with the world.
So when I'm in a car zoning out on about the millionth trip I've made to work along 101 words like that tend to hit me head on. Am I vulnerable? Of course! Am I really, truly vulnerable? Have I dared big and struggled and failed hard and rallied again? Not in a long, looooong time.
So without trying to commit to anything else, I want to learn more about vulnerability's place in my life - it's presence or absence and how it's guiding my decisions. This whole mid-life thing is sort of spinning my head. Where do I go from here? I've generally traveled down a river most of my life, taking opportunities as they came my way but I have a sense it's time to get out and forge my own path to find what's next. I wouldn't change how I've lead my life - it's brought so many wonderful people and places and adventures into my world - but it seems there's another way to go about it now that I should pursue.
But since that isn't an overnight thing, and I'm not sure how long it will take to get off the river, I'm starting where I can and committing to this 30 days of writing. Opening up to a little v-u-l-n-e-r-a-b-i-l-i-t-y. I'm a Virgo so I like things just so and I tend to obsess over my words for days sometimes - it will be hard to throw up a post knowing I have limited time to push it live, but that's the message of Brene's talk - life is imperfect and messy and when we free ourselves from the burden of trying to avoid imperfection we can realize our more authentic selves.
To my authentic self: please help me write quickly and be funny and interesting.
Taking a page from my friend Andrea's list of self-challenges (100 Days of Yoga, 30 Days of No Shopping, 100 Days of no Sugar, Flour, Alcohol and Rice, etc) I am committing to putting something out there for the next 30 days. Of course, I have a commitment issue thing so I should probably also commit to committing myself.
Brene Brown wrote: “Vulnerability is the birthplace of innovation, creativity and change. ” I've been obsessed with her 2010 TED Talk and a few interviews I've found to listen to while driving. Go search her now if you haven't heard of her before. Part of her message: without vulnerability we stifle our creativity and limit our authenticity. We judge ourselves and compare and then decide, no, this isn't good enough to share with the world. We're not good enough to share with the world.
So when I'm in a car zoning out on about the millionth trip I've made to work along 101 words like that tend to hit me head on. Am I vulnerable? Of course! Am I really, truly vulnerable? Have I dared big and struggled and failed hard and rallied again? Not in a long, looooong time.
So without trying to commit to anything else, I want to learn more about vulnerability's place in my life - it's presence or absence and how it's guiding my decisions. This whole mid-life thing is sort of spinning my head. Where do I go from here? I've generally traveled down a river most of my life, taking opportunities as they came my way but I have a sense it's time to get out and forge my own path to find what's next. I wouldn't change how I've lead my life - it's brought so many wonderful people and places and adventures into my world - but it seems there's another way to go about it now that I should pursue.
But since that isn't an overnight thing, and I'm not sure how long it will take to get off the river, I'm starting where I can and committing to this 30 days of writing. Opening up to a little v-u-l-n-e-r-a-b-i-l-i-t-y. I'm a Virgo so I like things just so and I tend to obsess over my words for days sometimes - it will be hard to throw up a post knowing I have limited time to push it live, but that's the message of Brene's talk - life is imperfect and messy and when we free ourselves from the burden of trying to avoid imperfection we can realize our more authentic selves.
To my authentic self: please help me write quickly and be funny and interesting.
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